names they call me

cunt
whore
bitch
piece of shit
idiot
fucker
loser
slut
asshole
douche bag
mommy.


sometimes I just whisper to myself.
molly
molly
molly.

but nobody ever says it.
and nobody ever means it.

they all hate me

they all hate me here.
it is horrible.
i didn't have anything for school and they laughed at my clothes.

everywhere i go i think that i see blake, but it just turns out to be someother strung out kid.
i wish i was gone from here

even back in the truck sleeping at rest stops was better than this.

i want to take a hot shower and i want to sleep in a real bed.
i want to have my brother back.
i want to have a normal life again.

i just want to cry.